I have the absolute best of intentions to write, to progress, to connect, to be present. I sit down at a desk to work, a table to write, on a couch to watch a movie with my boys, or on a bench outside to just be in the energy of the city. I don't know when it happens, but before I know it, my phone is in my hands and I'm scrolling through Instagram. I go and I go. depleted of new pictures or stories I'm interested in, I open Facebook. What's recent? What's new? What's happening around the world? Again, depleted, I open Twitter to see who's witty, what's controversial, how the world is (d)evolving.
Wait.
Why am I sitting here? Oh, to write . . . yeah . . . huh. Maybe just a moment longer? Is there another interesting story? Maybe even something inspirational an author I follow has posted in the last few minutes?
I should . . . check out Twitter one more time, because, wow, the Wheel of Time TV show is so good and I wonder if there's anything new about it . . .
Wait.
What just happened in the movie that my kid reacted to? I fake an astonished, "I know!" That matched his reaction, right?
This isn't a sermon (vomit) about how horrible social media is. Social media isn't the devil, it has a ton of great applications and uses. I intend to keep using it. And (not but) as we have heard so much of on the news and other outlets, it can complicate our world as well.
This is a confession that I can't really handle it and I give too much of myself over to it. Social media can suck my attention. My focus. My will.
I've recently deleted Instagram and Facebook from my phone . . . yeah, Twitter is still there. I know. My intention is to access them from my computer when I'm working: throwing something out about my book or writing progress, something about a show we're doing at school. Even the random life update. That's my goal. We'll see. What I know I can't handle is the easy access to it on my phone. This is where I'm starting.
I hope to see something different. I hope to find focus and connection. I hope to strengthen my will. I hope to find healthy balance.
. . . now those matching games . . .
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